EXACTLY

EXACTLY

what is it, exactly?

I try to draw a picture,
a blueprint, an organogram
in my head

every
time I think
I am close, something
tells me
I got it wrong, missed
a crucial detail
or sensing that I was
gettimg Oh
so close, changed
itself slightly, or
even completely

leaving me
as always, in the dark
exactly where
I believe i began.