FOR THE RECORD

FOR THE RECORD

the needle stuck
unable to move

doomed to persist in
this groove

me
   likewise keep harping on
clinging to all
that I
once felt about you

who felt so
always out of reach
stuck in some
            mutual exclusion zone
the pair of us

our story, such as it is, whatever
it was, easy
meat for
all those fake
grammarians of desire

and this the fate
                for those who read,
who write,

looking
for that true text
that hides inside, lingers
perhaps beneath

between the lines
if there
     ever were lines

demarcations to
keep our darknesses
strictly apart

disregarding
         the Sun, the light

you in the
arms of
         what I could
only presume to be
a living god

me
    finding myself,
imagining myself, however
far-
   fetched a, follower of Francis

yearning for
a sanctity poverty might address

POEMS 29 MAY

FRACTURE

this is the fracture line
where things break
cannot
be repaired

I say goodbye
to things that never existed

bubble that burst
and me
gone
with it

camera gone so
we cut to a black screen
if there were
screen
to cut to

you ask
want to insist on
words of memory
but there is
nothing to remember
all that was data
information

safely
stowed away

****

POKE

I poke you
poke fun
at you

and you
are so quick
to elevate
yourself
deem it
nonsense

but nothing
hostile meant
nor in any
way sexual

hanging
    upside down
as I am
I have a unique
take on absurdity

you
    speed dial to Apollo
angling for high art

when I just
smell, taste carnival

that succulent feast-
ready ripeness
in all things

before they falter
before they rot

****
SWEET TAKEOFF

causal logic
would suggest takeoff
before landing
(kind of
     chicken conundrum
whether
sufficient and
necessary condition
for scrambled egg)

from gull-wings and
racing slicks to
delta
    swept back
Concorde

you are
     whooshed off the tarmac
now sailing
through
the sky

need
to get you across the pond
fast and furious
to exploit
chaos
   in the markets

such windows of opportunity
that open only unto gods

****
CRUCIAL

the Sun
is my heart

my heart
is the Sun

see as you hold them up
to each other

how crucial
my blood

to preserve
the light

****

hesitate to proceed
my dark reader

you might find
what I have for you here
darker than you can bear

may
   taste good
but how
could you possibly know
what I did here,
what got smelled
here together
was thrown
into a blender

callously, carelessly
without thought paid
to your
well-being
concern for your survival

verses consonant
with the treachery of the world

out to
trap you, have you
out to get you

never finding yourself
anywhere like this before

****

ARE WE?

Are we
strong nuclear force?

or
   are we
weakest nuclear force imaginable
vastly mistaken?

any in our
wildest dreams any
kind of nuclear force at all?

softly entangled
     living in the shadow, as
the shadow
of all
those multiple
alternate universes

somewhere there
must be continuity
traces of
     better choices

bleeding across the demarcations
despite rigid law by rule

my blood
       somewhere on
the floor

****

AS PROMISED

You led
me to believe
there would be
honey, tahini,
luscious fruit salad

gave me the promise
of more than
one sad
banana
spoke of a rainforest feast

maybe I should
just suck on an ice cube
slice and salt
at potato

get into
practice for
that menu
of bare
sustenance

its time
now clearly near

****



POEMS 30 MAY

ROUGH DRAFT

You are still
a rough draft
a work
in progress

need editing, proof
reading, punctuating
fine tuning

your text
needing primping,
pimping, before

you can be ridden,
before you can ride

across the page, horizon
to horizon,
     for a hot minute,
innumerable beats, serious
revolutions in
the existential dance
of pure, time-dilated time.

****

CAPTIVE AUDIENCE

zoo animals seek
a captive audience

love to keep
a host of mindless humans
stuffing
   their faces with
everything under the Sun
all and sundry

keeping this
       state of forever feeding time
in their cerebral sights

****

MORONS

They sent me
and some other morons

to audit
the stars
market-
research them

do the whole
Cambridge Analytica thing
to them

win them over
hearts and minds

****





FACE


FACE

all you need
to face
the Medusa
is a mirror,

a sliver of mirror,
a shard, a fragment,
all are up to
it
all will do

why bother to
carry an ornate mirror, lug
a Louis XIV
piece of
     gilded craftsmanship
into the Gorgon’s cave
that place
of ultimate, perversely
exquisite danger

or any of those bent, warped,
ostensibly satirical
crazy
    circus fairground
magically distorting
mirrors

as if this insult to injury is the way
to strip Medusa bare of
her instantaneous
lethal charm
         all that is left
of her femininity,
humanity

to confront
the monster
you
   made a monster
thing mirrored out
of shadow refraction

     face it, stand it down,
not to balk at
what
   it can do to you
this aberration

which
       let us never forget
was not
always so
    was defiled and then
so hideously transformed
by nothing less
than masculinity itself
by those
same propensities to
heroism surging
unrestrained
within you
    sanctioned and
given
   covering fire
by divine wisdom itself

yes,

   stare into that glass
you wish to use
as deadly
   targeting weapon
before you
point it

at the evil that you secretly
fear
   itself a reflection

proof that behind all
great celebrated
truth
    redemptive victory
a horrible lie

as false
     as any false window, doorway
trick of perspective
fiction of
       dimensions in
true trompe l’oeil

OVIDARY

OVIDARY

It doesn’t add up
never adds up

no simple algebraic sequence
formula to string us along

was playing an ancient game
with sacred pieces
imagining them
split into armies
of wasps
versus bees

be our be
all and end all
         (not to be
questioned)

in the shadow
of Spartacus

provide us
with a metamorphosis
which poet Ovid himself
would have been
singularly proud of

Aphrodite rebranded
as Venus
    born of divine
emasculation, mother
of Aeneas, mother of Julius who would be Caesar,
shepherding with
the self-sacrifice of assassination
the people and
   Senate of Rome from
Republic to
  Empire along that
bloody primrose path

this garden full of, swirling
with bees
     pollen-loaded, hive-
bound
serving no Emperor yet
slaves to
     their Queen

and Venus, as always, surfing
on her conch shell almost
at the shore
            we who
could stage this, enact this,
film it, freeze frame it,
or let
   it run
for all eternity

are sharp to see
where myth and
propaganda
         lie together, do
the dirty
know too well how
this goes
     how it is now
to be manufactured, destined
to be framed
the sacred
politics of this scene

and in this moment
of creative metamorphosis
scientific
       transformation

we the exiled catch underpinning
the bees buzzing
    a shift, a change
an opening
  a could-not-be-more-stupidly-
simple experiment

a reckoning, a state of
stunned realization

that nothing
   is real unless

it decides
to be
so

such
a shapeshift in
core idea
     every atom we thought we
were
    constructed as the
building blocks of
everything

that landscape moving, that
landscape changing
dissolving
                   mutating into
something fluid, bottomless
outside, inside
us
    that sees things, decides
things
for itself

        fluid, bottomless,
provisional, hypothetical,
infinitely divisible
  
a thing of fancy and
(for better or
for worse) thing of
creative fancy upon clear mathematical
whim

way it is
           crazy as it
sounds
way it has always been

playing us
for fools, leading
by the nose
.
even here in this garden, on
this farm,
especially here
in this
garden

heart
of all its energies
all its
geometries

proving
    it is the angle with
which you align
   from which you write
which
changes everything

even
      in exile,
discarded

master of
its alchemies

seeds everywhere  waiting
wondering
            thinking

the seeds of
the new
         in all its
configurations

an alchemy before (and yet
hidden from) your very eyes

the shifting power
                we now see
come
to fruition
duly realized

as it
      conquers, consolidates,
plays the masquerade
of true
love

extending its arm
in every direction
following
     the law of its logic
here to

multiply, fortify  divide,
define
         the image of all
that is eternal
in civilization

Qpfrom birth to death
for the rest of time

OVIDARY

OVIDARY

It doesn’t add up
never adds up

no simple algebraic sequence
formula to string us along

was playing an ancient game
with sacred pieces
imagining them
split into armies
of wasps
versus bees

a metamorphosis
which poet Ovid himself
would have been
singularly proud of

proving
    it is the angle with
which you align
   from which you write
which
changes everything

when
   as atoms ourselves, we
thought atoms
lived
   and loved
   and worked
within
that classical system

and then
       we saw things differently,
saw ourselves
differently

watched the sunlight split
refract grow
so
   diffuse

suggest
   a different way of
seeing everything

taking
a fresh look
changing everything

and so I say
rewrite
   the poem
if you truly must

do
the research
open the book

go into
exile, assume the default position, dodge
excesses of power
and political will

so
   tell me about
kitchen alchemy
on the farm

how the brain breeds opulence
as it
    thinks itself as myth

so much before us
            well and truly fleeced
golden fleeced

finally
    the numbers
according
to which

it multiplies, divides, defines
extending in every direction
to meet the hallmarks
of geometrical progression

the art of love
in every configuration.

NOTHING

NOTHING

was reading some
satire written
by a libertine scoundrel

wishing he were not that
thing which to his cost
“I already am”

and him
a peer of the realm
reducing himself to poverty

got me thinking
how little they are
of value
   these supposedly
great poems, some
worth absolutely
nothing

totally unable to function
as currency providing
any type
of meaningful exchange

how crazy
it would be
to take
it as foundation

when
   multi trillion dollar debt
offset by
control of
all monetary exchange

would
   do the trick as
indeed it has
done for decade
after decade

stuttering, wobbling,
tottering

losing all
headway quite suddenly

a denouement
                 of such insane
proportions on
the cards

poetic justice I would say

AT THE MOCK BATTLE

AT THE MOCK BATTLE

I went to the amphitheatre
to watch the mock battles

being a good citizen
of Rome

bought a,programme
bought tiny tray of treats

they make it
look so good
look like
real bloodshed

this
not convincing enough
for Caligula, our newly
crowned God-Emperor

but
I believe
death
should not be

the default criterion
for verisimilitude

sometimes blood
needs
to be more than real.

DIPLOMACY

DIPLOMACY

I came across
the President
playing diplomacy

he was deploying
a sharpie to
change the lines
on the board

shouting down
his opponents with
his incredible
logical mastery and
Verbal power none
dare withstand

and every one
was with him
his whole
nation
got his back

told those opponents
arrogant enough
to imagine
they have
the stuff to challenge him

should he lose, they
not let
him win

they would beg
him
    pass the order
executive
for DEFCON ONE

their revenge
the sweetest even
if they all died.