DIFFER
you say
I can’t
write
poetry
you say
my voice
is not
truly
South African
(whatever
that means)
with which
I beg to
differ
beg to
ever so moerse
slightly vokking differ
DIFFER
you say
I can’t
write
poetry
you say
my voice
is not
truly
South African
(whatever
that means)
with which
I beg to
differ
beg to
ever so moerse
slightly vokking differ
TIME TREK
straight from the pulpit
mouth of Stanley Kubrick
by way
of Jupiter, the Moon,
beyond the galaxy and
the dawn of Man
without
historiographic context
the grain
of the cross
cannot be determined
thus spake the Yale
deconstructive theologian
unto the mediasphere
meanwhile on the other side
of the screen
but
likewise in Africa
I saw cinema where
I had my
first Kubrick contact
along the old Voortrekker Road
North, in those badass CY
suburbs of Cape Town
the Christians came in droves
drove us
from that
watering hole
turned it into
what I suppose they thought
a special day-night
paradise
for the evangelically faithful
no world
in which they
and I
could meet and talk
about pod bay doors and
HAL
and the Monolith
about starchild transfomed
floating through space
haunting
close to our Odyssey
UNDER
I almost drowned
way back,
decades ago
survived (obviously)
but suffered
much water damage
took on
so much water
always drifting, never
an even keel
now
fear immersion, the very
thought of absorption
and here I am now
26 degrees East, 26 South,
before climate change,
incessant rain
it used
to be semi-desert
trying to write a science fiction
tale
about a human atomic
powered submarine
navigating a vast
unknown ocean, ocean
on an incredibly distant
alien planet
not going anywhere but
got a title at least, that
being “Under”
writing it as a riff
on Verne’s 20,000 League
tale of
the Nautilus, whilst
exploring the mythology of
my Western and
Eastern
astrological signs
almost drowned on
board a ship (whilst
the irony seems
exquisite, technically it
was the Atlantic
that came
for me
and, after possible
divine intervention, simply
changed its mind
this
on our way to a new land,
new home
my Father thought
best for us
beautiful country with
a dark, iniquitous history
about
to get darker
and all
through my life, Atlantic,
Indian, Benguela, Mozambique-
Agulhas
those waters
out to get me
constantly out
to infiltrate, swim
through
my brain
having me respond in
ways to rational human
being can
comfortably respond
daring me
to speak the truth
of coldness, darkness,
of the abyss
having me say things I
would not
let myself say
the text
of “Under” still not
finding its page.
BOGIES
we called our push
carts bogies
tue richer kids, from
up the street
ordered theirs, in
screw-together
streamlined
formula one kits
mine
my grandfather, my Mother’s
father had to make, mine
pram wheels and axels
and an old
pantry shelf he
painted purple
“the mauve monster” as
it was dubbed
my the flash kids, the
speed aces,
the titans
from the top of our road
as they sped past me
effortlessly
but they did not get to see
this man of few words
and (to me)
much mystery
at work, an engineering
marvel of
perfect proceas
or check the Great War
kit pinned up
high on
his cellar
workshop wall
same cellar where in 1940
as my Mother told me
her elder sisters
returning late
had tried to sneak in
delivered,
by a tank and
this man, their father ever
vigilant
had caught them before
they were able to sneak
unspotted up to bed
sure they were
Hitler’s finest, having
ditched their parachutes
sneaking in
through the cellar to
take their revenge
for what he did
in his twenties to their
uncles and fathers over
his two years
on the Western Front with
the instrument of
mass death that
saved him
back then
a genuine water-cooled point
303 Vickers medium
machine gun
without which no him no
daughters no mother
ultimately
no me
I wonder when it was
my Mother, still a child
must have
fitst noticed it
what questions she asked
what she thought
what she knew, imagined
of that war
back to the bogies, my
purple bogie
last memory of my life
in the North
of England back then
bogies
such a strange war-haunted
Battle of Britain word
the skies back then full
of 109s and Heinkels and
Dorniers
fight for survival, standing
alone against Nazism (and
new old
enemy Germany)
all for
democracy (not Empire) and
all that is good in
mankind and
noble
in the world
my Mother
became strange as she aged,
my father too in that still
clinging to
colonialism pre-
liberation South Africa
others came
we left
my Mother so aghast
years later
to hear who it waa exactly now
living in that house
place of her menories
(and who
know what subtle, pervasive,
inevitable
family warfare)
source of my
purple, magnificent bogie
its maker
and his
machine gun
long time passed, younger
in years when he did than
my age now
TYGERBERG
vacuum cleaner
sucking up dirt and fluff
absurdly early, not even
sure than it could
be called morning
from the kitchen
war
seems about to me
declared, easy to
deduce from
the manifest hostilty
openly expressed
in the friction and
firefights between
the pots and
the plans
a clash for the ages
all that was, peace and
domesticity
come clattering down
and so
thus chastized for
my laziness and hurled
into action
I boot up
this then state
of the art dos computer
read the green
dissertation text which
sadly, does not
show any inclination
to save my academic bacon
by writibg itself
big mistake this
returning home
for my sabbatical
to save a few pence
drive my way into Rondebosch
from out in the
lower white middle class
Afrikaans speaking
industrial suburbs
hoping
this will not
become an error
of truly epic, horrendous
proportions
first in
a long long line
of bad, wrong choices
I never
did resolve
AT THE SHEBEEN
I took Wallace Stevens
down to the Shebeen
we dined
on braised cow’s head
and a selection
of South African beers
all of this chased down
with tub-fulls of
salted caramel ice cream
throughout this novel experience
I felt I could detect things whirring
in that machine-like faultlessly
poetic brain
something afoot behind
those placid eyes
finely meshed, sublimely
purposeful
some I dream, gut-feeling,
but also there
in heart
of hearts
he will real all this off
by way of a special poem
cleverly infected
in language
flirting with becoming
totally impenetrable to me.
THEREIN
ah, such golden
reflections on the ills
of democracy Mr Cliff
I wonder what heightened
state of political consciouness
making
you kin
to Plato, produced
such
desire for curation, left
us with
so much to mull over
State of beauty in
all its golden
reflection
ruled and voted for
by the very best, like
your good self
hearts of solid, pure
high caste iron
brain
of shiny tin
(all such philosophical
mumblings, rumblings,
perfect expression
of the truth
therein)
TODAY
today, no cheap
linguistic tricks
I promise
such as
comic wordplay involving
crude pun, your
basic
obvious homonym
such as
poor Gareth, so
on the
wrong side
of history,
losing
intellectual footing
tumbling
off a cliff
in his desperate intervention
to save the State
by savaging democracy
anything to distract
from the patently
racial
sleight of hand
AH, YES, GARETH
Ah yes Gareth
is, this, not a case
of who will
guard guardians (custodes
custodet ipse)
or that old
joke against the Reich
involving bicycle riders
and Jews
we see
how neatly education,
class and
wealth translate
into realms political as
more insidious
species of liar
as the world clamours
for democracy in the face
of every species of
fascism
I confess to be less
than entertained as your
stale brethren
by the puttering
posturings
of your pithy little pen.
MOSSLEY SURREAL
(LONG STORY)
I was there the day
Mossley, town
of my birth,
went
as surreal as it could
the day this, little Pennine town
hosted a visit by
the completely surreal
and me
in my parents’ nice
little 40s brick
semi-detached house
up to their crazy nonsense
I was to yet figure out
down from Manchester
(where I would go
to university) on
a camel, in a caravan,
the surreal
on its way
to mess
with our field gray
Northern Englishness
us afterthoughts of Empire
who maybe
had not seen better days
too early to
pose the existential threat
of psychedelia
doom us
to a world of
Sergeant Pepper colours
snarling Jagger Stones
up
in your face
though our
little Tame river flowing
to become
the Mersey
certain to
back wash everybody one day
in the full
Lennon-McCartney
helter-skelter
Walrus, Strawberry Fields
awakening experience of
full-flood
hallicinatory Liverpool
sound
fish and chips, that staple fare,
squid, octopussified
by the brush
of the immortal Dali
decades before
colonization
by McDonald’s
and then the vagrants, puppets,
teddy boys and
ne’re do wells
up on the moors turned
raging rebel
nor did the Anglican Church
up in Micklehurst
for all
its solid stone and
hegemonic presence
survive this
assault
unscathed, do any better
and me
just ten and
confused as shit, but sticking
my neck out to
understand what
going on
laughing my head off
as this
my little
former world went wrong
that head
rolling rolling rolling
the length of England down
to Southampton
for crisis crisis
my father fired and
can get
no job
trying his luck
in an apartheid white
Christian national
land
and me
long story
living that
bad surreal through
to its
happy surreal end
in my twilight as
overly surreal sort
of South African
living at
a distance
British revolutions
in sound