EXACTLY AT THIS POINT

EXACTLY AT THIS POINT

left my mind
on the helter skelter

and you
first Dan, halfdan, third
Dan
whatever Dan you are

rollercoaster father
    smirking sublimely
heavens of cloud
light and dark cloud
above me

and she
who I wanted, needed
so much at
that moment
MJM of the shapely legs
and thighs
crashing into me at top
speed perversely
has anyone ever
received such a thrilling smack
in a dodgem bumper car

and the theorists speculating
on the nature of carnival
hum
   a good tune
talk a good liberation

and falling in line
        (such a
ragged line)
with every compadre
of that persuasion

I wanted to
go guttural
     get down and dirty
be
  the sublime poet of
the sewer if only
for a brief
moment
        outdoing the inimitable
Charles, universal stereotype
of this poet

Oh helter skelter
must be
     a surreal repetition
to have
that guy Manson
sweep back
    into fashion

and me
     at the pinnacle of the
rollercoast exactly at
         this point

PILGRIMAGE

PILGRIMAGE

skimming
our coastline

trawling
deep

sooner or later
they discover
our poetry

stumble across
that great outlier
that is
Ingrid Jonker

are captivated by
her sharpness, passion,
fierce emotional
honesty
and intensity

and yet
whenever I find myself
at the place she drowned,
marked by
her tiny, sun and sea
spray
battered monument

I get no sense of this
in wildest dreams
ever
a place
of pilgrimage

LEFT TO SAY


LEFT TO SAY

since she
is
   goddess,
divine

it would have to be
mortal Adonis
to make the sacrifice
to tell their story

get
  those beautiful,
painful words
upon the page

and there it was, their
love saga
     captured forever
magnificent creation

and there Adonis lying
finally in the arms of grieving          Aphrodite

mission accomplished, nothing
more for him left to achieve
nothing more
        left to say