O AMANDA

O AMANDA

Oh Amanda,
I have you
in twenty
twenty hindsight

gone
totally
retrospective

just to
see
just how
badly you
recited us

how much not
just off key
off track
but mistaking
the climate

leading us off
in the wrong
direction

not climbing
the hill but
on death
descent down
the mountain

you there inspiring us
with hope, false hope
stuff
   of bad ideology

in your sun yellow dress
beautifully assured

and
    battling down
those slopes it was
all ice,
  all winter, death
by exclusion, excision,
by  bullets
through
the side
window at
point blank range

and the house
on the hilk with
its shining city
hoisting
   an old hated, feared flag,
as bulldozers knock
down
  and everything gets
restructured

need space for
the ritz whilst
homeless
go hungry

ghouls at the ball, macabre
how much space
they need
      to dance and
twirl
and plot human structure

should have been
severe on yourself before
flaunting your
skills
before us
Miss Gorman,
should have checked
your subtext for
masquerade

and so
why should we climb
that hill
   since we can buy one
elsewhere
greener, cheaper

take one out there
for ourselves
     we write good poetry,
exceptional lines really
that
   nothing
can compare with

the sun setting on that hill,
your hill

suddenly
    I smell abyss
and feel the slippery slide
       

INCOMPLETE

INCOMPLETE

there I
am
smile being
wiped off my face
the huge
being wiped
off my face

always
a price to pay
wear
and tear
always
a tariff

your face
falling
shares falling

I can see me whole life
in those dips and spikes

one to one
with my
cardio rhythms

if it
is all theatre,
masquerade
lets
  
  my soul
become
pure ego

in the mirror
up on the screen

brash and burnished
over-inflated over
extended

dog day in
day out
dusk to
dawn derided

sad sack of a case
could not
be more

incomplete

UPON US


UPON US

outside, in no time,
the rock heroes
were pitching into
new and
old school philosophers

meanwhile,
  inside the auditorium,
a voice was straining
even to reach a whisper
to instruct me
in the art of
thinking, doing,
being
beyond all duality

and you and I,
once acolytes,
found ourselves
titanic,
possibly primal,
and
    yet
        distinctly
out of kilter

essence of oil
    floating upon
essence
of water

two tiny boat lanterns
sailing away from each other
no hope of far shore

and outside
that battle
producing no
decisive victor

stalemate as outcome
splitting of spoils
division
of points

the stars gutted to lose
all reason to celebrate

joy in
   harmonious union
triumph
of will

nothing therefore
to suggest
   need for nice
sacrifice

as if
  the gods even care

as if
mythology is real

and
   blessing

be upon us




,

TA-RA

TA-RA

stared at the ceiling
tried to read the stars
when they appeared
as if
  I were reading
the Kabbala or Torah

and
mystical moment, unexpected
abracadabra, wouldn’t
you have guessed
it, know it
they did
      appear, disappear

like clockwork it ran,
long before Heisenberg,
taking its, cue
from Newton

like clockwork
it ran
until
   it no longer cared
until it didn’t

try to
   understand it all
process it now
until paradigms shift
and it just
gets
too much for you

see how cleanly
it aligns
   with all on
that whiteboard
spelling out your
rough draft
towards a logical framework

TRAJECTORY

TRAJECTORY

stood on the huge iron wheel
mounted on the outside wall
of the Manchester museum
of science and technology

cops, bobbies, driving by
at my instant of transgression
so I froze in arm-outstetched pose
dead ringer for that image
sent into deep
deep space by NASA

which made me, perhaps
still makes me (with my
PhD on satire)
pretty aberrant cog
in any like-clockwork
social machine
     living at that time
in the historical house
of Engels (agreeing
ever more it seems
with the raw
redness of his theme)

John Lydon and his
backing band volcanic
at that time
defining
     the sensibility of
that scene

wheels spinning in
my head
            anarchic thread
Confederate cotton

my people of the
mills and
steel engineering

structure, order
chaos
       (fatal fractal) just
around the corner

wheel
    still spinning
probable, possible
counters aligned
naughts and
crosses
     binary system

in the
   resolution of where I was
am my
current solid
state (super) position

heading, hurtling,
     not going quietly but
like arrested protestor
kicking and
screaning

dialectic
   of my trajectory

standing on that
huge iron wheel
                      sudden
flashback
from my future

BANQUET

BANQUET

welcome
to
my
banquet

as you can see,
the table has been laid

this place
reserved for you
alongside
my Muse (this
the naked
truth) and
here the wine
there
   the staples,

in
another time-zone,
frame of reference,
the piece de resistance
dessert
    and fruit

leave it to me
to bring
your journey
to felicitous conclusion

you leave
    full belly, charmed
satisfied
     though taste-wise

some of the nature of this
whole experience
                         liminal
verging towards
the edge of
safe and
     unchallenging
delectation

SEQUEL

SEQUEL

so much
frightens us

fear
can hardly be
more pervasive

and me
on the couch
in your bedroom
spending the night

thought we
would read love poems together
but here we are
turned Hansel
and Gretel

you telling me
fairy tales
reading me
my riot act
of a bedtime story

suddenly something
inside outside
in the space between us
has turned enchanted forest

a war in the pub behind
the off licence, a sequel
of sorts
     over how, blood
gets sullied and
the State gets, poisoned

and as we all stream East
directives to
destroy
   every house
where there might
be gingerbread

horror
     not to be spoken
about
  worst species of witch
next tale
to be told being
a sequel
of sorts dictating who
gets
  a cuddle, what
orphans get dumped
go full sleeping beauty on
tragic trajectory

we
   counting the beads on
your ancient
rosary

entrusted to you for
wholesome protection
by someone’s tramp, vamp
much
    misunderstood
stepmother

and now
spectres from a
haunted past rising
up
  from their graves to
propogate the sugar
sweet myth.
of a delicious future

ovens for burning cakes
on an industrial scale

stuff
   of nightmare for us
to dream upon

now that hope for something
deeply, deeply shared
             has drifted so far away


SCRATCHING THE SURFACE

SCRATCHING THE SURFACE

so many demons, devils,
hobgoblins, djinns, zombies,
vampires, Nazis
and, monsters
              in here
out there
a whole confederacy
quite literally, symbolucally even

to count them
you will need
an abacus, a calculator,
a quantum computer

no end to
them
    and their untimely
proliferation

growing in
number, confidence,
politucal will
marching
in legion

good job
we got bombs, nissiles,
nuclear weapons
goung to need
more, far nore of them,
a geomtric progression

to deal
with this sea, this horde,
to do more, far more
a storm of mushroom clouds
no mere
scratxhing the surface

a monster problem
needing  a monster solution

the final solution
writhing in my monstrous brain