THINK THAT i CAN THINK
i am body
without consciousness
I am consciousness
body free
wondering how,
if I am just a deteriorating
copy of a photocopy
I can
make love to you
think that i can think
almost philosophically
THINK THAT i CAN THINK
i am body
without consciousness
I am consciousness
body free
wondering how,
if I am just a deteriorating
copy of a photocopy
I can
make love to you
think that i can think
almost philosophically
WHITE
Yellow custard
red jelly
black cat
white phosphorous
what is the colour
of horrible death?
ON MY PART
was going to send you
an audio
making love to you
with voice
reaching those spots
other voices fail to reach
but
I held back, pressed
record
but no speech
on my part
nothing came out
think it must
be the terrible fear
that something
spoken
sensuously
will
bounce back
and before I know it
there I am once more
falling for
you again
desperate that all the pleasure
I talk, is pleasure
that in my
heart I still
hope of talking you into
lying back on my bed night
after night alone
longing, dreaming
one day
we will touch
climate change
has not touched me yet
maybe
warming is not real, neither
have I been seared
nor likewise broiled
the talk of the Poles South
and North shedding
their huge
ice
falling apart
does not seem
real to me now
as I lie here
contemating the eternal
verity that we as species
will continue
forever as we are
the dread of our demise
just brush by
zither was what I used to strum
and trombone too
could crank a
tune out of
but all got exchanged
traded for bone bagpipe
at the local
flea market
and yes, feel I got cheated
I definitely do
bought and sold way
below
true value like
a cracked Grecian urn
down to thing of singld string
which I can pluck for all I’m worth
but no way its going
to replace Paganini
or be up there
with Hendrix
poets and guitar heroes
naturally enough seem
to
incline towards
early graves
Ah, yes,
social Darwinism
be your inclination
pitbull terriers —
they
are your thing;
but would you pit, against
a tank, this,
or some other poem
without ceramic armour,
without armour-piercing
depleted uranium shell?
For all
poem got going for it
is knowledge of shadow, and
pulse of humanity
and that is
sure-fire defeat, on
hiding to nothing,
as a Nobel Laureate does suggest
himself suggest
Oh, if only tanks could be
stopped in their tracks
by bloke
with shopping bang
barrels get so stuffed with
gorgeous flowers things
might
misfire; shells
and bullets simply melt
in the face of all
that sweetness and light
(and
metaphor, let
us not forget)
the antennae
of the species
wrote on paper, in clay,
on the digital universe
who dare order?
what dare fire?
but then, who has ever
really talked to the mind of a tank?
AS FAR AS
as far
as poetry is concerned
I am
provisional front
out
in left field
since poetry owes me
has not been
so sweet
to me
demanding
I constantly exceed myself
never too
understanding
or overly kind
this poem too
gung-ho
about
its sympathy
and charity
and desire to
enshrine this
in the hearts
of all of humankind
this poem too, no exception,
giving me
a big fun for my money
obstinate in making it case,
protesting its faith
whole world of difference however,
between what it seems to be saying
and how it appears to me
I am done with dissonance
except where
it captures the complexion
of what surrounds
gives
taste of the chaos that
riddles through
harmony is the thing that
must nourish, bring together
harmony that
feels
like
impossible belief
when last, if ever, were
woken by wings
hovering above
taking angelic form?
just add a few Pratt and Whitneys
and there you have dissonance
what you figured might be
Michael, Uriel, Gabriel
drowning out the room
with clamour of regular comic
superhero
(or, indeed villain)
elevated to cosmic, epic,
mythical proportions
by virtue of three-
act structure, and titanic movie screen
already you can see it touch it
smell it feel it, let alone
hear it
this dissonance, every tiny
breath of harmony
here in me, here
in the poem
so desperate to distance from
quietly eschew.
BOOKWORM
(for MARK Z DANIELEWSKI)
a mysterious book
appears
what am I saying?
a mysterious collection
of texts appears
housed
quite compactly
in a mysterious bookcase
(in fact the fit between
books and
bookcase
is,
uncertainty theorem aside,
mathematically exact)
my fall from grace
was reading these books, taking
from this tree
though the fruit was gorgeous
waking up
from violently lucid dreams
and vomiting over
the bedspread
I figured there might be some value
in the sacred prohibitions
against the blasphemy
of writing
reading
but
who wrote these books
and who wrote the words leaking
through the brickwork
suddenly
manifesting themselves
on the walls?
I write down my dream
but then read further, find,
it was
already written
suddenly the term “intertextual” is no longer
just radical polyphony of meaning
but being stretched and pulled apart
by the conflicting
gravitational pull
of dramatically dissonant worlds
I burn
all I have written
the storehouse of my life
stacked in a pyre
having failed the inquisition
we are
all locked in a fiction, a forever
thread-creating, fabric splicing brain
stuck
in
either hemisphere
doomed
to tell our tale
leaves pages
things metaphoric,
synonymous
left
all over the place

