BY DESIGN

BY DESIGN

everything
      twitches, shudders,
revolves,
devolves
       evolves

shades into

melds
    dissolves

splits, pulls tricks,
goes longitudinal, lateral.
becomes hybrid
finds
    a solution

runs parallel
   chases, takes tracking shot,
edits, splices.,
dices
  chases, runs
away from
enters into, escapes
                         out of

connives, convinced,
consumes
    is consumed by

darkens,
    enlightens
extends
    goes out on a limb
shifts and returns back to
resolves then rescinds

enhances, romances,
shadows, throws
shade upon

thinks better worlds, best
world

worst life we
can imagine

worst reality, surreal actuality,
horror show entirely

ones we
     are born into
                die in
die from

are enshrined in
remain remembered

unless
    resurrected, reincarnated,
renewed, reinvented
            simply born again

all things
      designed and created unless
worked it
all out themselves
        (what works
best
   for them)

generating their very being
out of something
rather than
nothing

why is there something
rather than nothing?

why
    is there anything

when
   nothing is central, primal,
presupposes
   logically, mathematically
essential

look at yourself
    plain as day you
just appeared out of nowhere

nothing
   so
    much the deeper

beyond
all conjecture

wiser
    than

we could ever fathom
from the very beginning
before
   the beginning by
inescapable design

such a grip on the plan

SALVATION

SALVATION

maybe I might
have forgotten myself
at that moment
of chaos and crisis

have forgotten to tell you
you have
become goddess
the most
beautiful thing
in the Universe

divine object of
the adulation of the stars

beloved dream of
all of us
     self included

who
   have known you
loved you
longed for you, wanted you

worshipped you
         from this intimate near

or
    as with me

so deeply
    from afar

that chaos, that crisis
stuff of supernova
of exploding galaxies

put
   to one side

alien to
     the quiet order and
system
and
   death by
intensity

of
which I
for the peace that is
light and
sort of
      respite

       guess I should write
being perhaps
some salvation

QUITE

QUITE

it doesn’t matter
if you can’t
do your taxes

fly a plane
or even drive a car

make love to
a man
   to a man
or lover non-
gender specific

none of
these things

matter
at all

left-brained, right-brained
schizophrenic, dyslexic

pro-
universal peace
or hungering for
thermonuclear war

everything will be fine
as long as you
never
   attempt poetry

as is
     well known, and
absolutely historically proven,

starting
   to write poetry
is the universal mistake
found throughout the galaxy

incontestably quite
the biggest disaster of all

NOT WHAT IS PERCEIVED

NOT WHAT IS PERCEIVED

we played chess
on acid

which gave the whole game
a kind of
snakes
  and ladders effect

then went
to write our
entrance exams

hard to do
algebra
when all you can hear
is the sound of a mellatron
and bagpipes
in your head

but nevertheless prevailed
did my level
best

spirit level best
left brain right brain
quantum
    entanglement at
the heart
of everything
      every
single breath

both in terms of the
horizontal and
the vertical dimensions

every shape
      and size, every configuration

my eyes
    see
        my fingers touch

and you in your beauty
naked before me

      at the core of love
meaning (and future) of our
stunning species

having recently discovered
all that is out there
                 if anything is
out there

is not what is perceived

HAVING HANNIBAL FOR BREAKFAST

HAVING HANNIBAL FOR BREAKFAST

tell me Dr Lecter
how many census takers
have you yourself tested

and is
their bureaucratic impudence
any guide to flavour

this I ask
as one of your greatest
admirers
who
    would have felt
so blessed
to have just a smidgen,
an ounce
of your visceral
eloquence

not to speak of
your tactical acumen
or ease with
which you
freely segue

from devious thought
to diabolical strategy

but
   let that all rest

we are both here
for breakfast, to enjoy
                         ourselves
try
  this Jamaican cuisine
you were so thoughtful
to bring

jerk Dr Chilton
lots of prize juicy
essential and
inessential
parts
    in a doggy bag

YET ANOTHER

YET ANOTHER

wrote a poem
crashed and burned

nice and crispy
in my coffin

no big deal
this grandest of exits
doesn’t make me
a rockstar
or anything

just another wannabe
following that script

so faithfully followed
right now
you might think it
an algorithm

that old self-destructive
yearning
      for excess

yet another convert
to the great
Arthur
     Rimbaud paradigm

DE FACTO

DE FACTO

the arm and a leg
debt retrieval people
(who might
already
   be hallmarked
for, or even be
in the midst of the process
of being
replaced
    my machines)

have stamped me on my forehead
laser-branded my file
“terminal case”

and here I am
under cover
    trying to slip through
every electric fence by
way of
some dark carnival

commodified down to
my body parts as
sole exchangeable assets

fear
    being cannibalised by
seemingly civilized means

but when
      the bandsaw hits my bone
de facto, I am
going to scream no matter
how you
   spin the semantics

the blood on
your apron
       calculator on

your desk unless
chipped into your head

BELONG

BELONG

Sufi Mufti
Grand Wazoo

feels like abracadabra
like verbal algebra
tuneful vowels
rolling
off my tongue

Shia Shia
Sunni Wahabi

and you Omar Khayyam
and disciples of Rumi

out in the desert
looking for rose
of beauty
woman

whose every
move a poem
every word
divine bliss

something mystical about
these Persian angels

something that drives the soul
to write
its love on sand

and me
in Heaven as I spell
out the logic
of this grammar in
full
linguistic mouthful
after mouthful

searching as I speak
for place to
belong to

if you
would have me belong