FINALLY
finally
I am acclimatizing
can see
things changing
things that
hitherto
put up
such strong resistance
but now
am moving past them
saying goodbye
to all such
finally
ready for life,
equipped for death
FINALLY
finally
I am acclimatizing
can see
things changing
things that
hitherto
put up
such strong resistance
but now
am moving past them
saying goodbye
to all such
finally
ready for life,
equipped for death
CHESS
a round peg
in a square game
minds as scrupulous
as serial murderers’
send there
the Knight, with its
principle of rotation
key to
the deconstructive
logic of
the game
and me
learning so little
even by
process
of accretion
not yet close to
developing
the whole 360 grandmaster
vision
no one going to put
me in
a King’s
Gambit TV series
great
move coming on its way
telling
the camera to push in
no here
the lens would get
my blunders skewered
and defeat be
syncopated to those
ruthless clocks
and those
white black zombies
skeletons of whatever
mythological
demons
mystical angels
shipped back to the shelf
in coffin-lidded box
leaving me
to muse on the distance
between myself and
the mystery
at the heart
of this pattern
player
and pieces
light and dark
death
and life
defence
attack
all falling
into place within
this great
little
arena
files a to h
ranks one to eight
such
sweet symmetry
to this
on-going trial
error torment, perpetual debate
constant revision
in practice
theory
square the hypotenuse
on black white bishop diagonal
chess as life
chess as being
THAT CAT
they all died
all
are alive
that cat
in the hat in the box always finds itself emerging
forever doomed to
survive
sick to the death at
the, possibility
of this terrible solipsism
having to better believe
it’s a fantastic layer cake
of endless simulation
nudge me
if you have a question, feel
you’ve stumbled
upon the meaning
I may not be deceased just
unable to sleep
POSTSCRIPT
footnote
postscrip
let me whisper to you
the request I made
to the Moon
to simply erase me
easy it is
to scheme a Hell
for consciousness, one
that will certainly work, do
a good job
as you see me here nicely dissected
set out as
shards
broken into pieces
by the time you stagger
onto the scene
to salvage
what you can
not a trace, not a trace,
last thought I had
record
of that place
my books
fighting their own little
almighty war against
the persistence
of dust
perhaps you might shut
that one lying
upside down on the bed
so much in there
perhaps of interest
presenting some
doorway
calling you to
the window
can add to the memory of
bittersweet memories of
the best memes
of humanity
as adjusted, edited,
presented
themed in major
or minor key
if you had bothered to read,
scan, copy,
scatter
surmise
if you had bothered
felt the need
EXTANT
It is my death
so do not covet it.
Allow me to decide
to keep this experience to myself
not to be shared
with anyone in
any
size, shape or form
my life for better or other
its course
already run
no desire to hobble through
inch by inch
ss this body battles
the odds
desperate to live
still extant
determined to extend

POEM IN STONE
prim village
but turn over
enough stones
shape shifters, Caesars,
serial-killers
and
at the tiny railway station
connecting nowhere
to everywhere
(all
roads lead to)
what slipped off
the rails
what
dark dreams?
(always a train
in a surrealist painting)
Oh and
there the tunnel
who knows
if there is light
if there
is other end?
something big
once stirred here
dared
a big net
to catch it
people remember, will
tell you,
people forget
what brought them here;
what took them hence

RETURN
sat by the oasis
dreaming of the ocean
dreaming of rivers.
sonetimes
water is everything
whole story
story beyond story
not your cockeyed
fable, an affront
to intelligence, all
our sensibilities
trying to tell me
it was delivered unto you
directly from Heaven
that angels had in a hand
in all the suffering
this has caused
so badly told, open
to simple deconstruction
the power that
truth must speak to
the lie
so ingrained, expression
of that darkneds to which
front
beginning of time
we have
always aspired
but as for me
waiting at this oasis
for whatever inspiration
know how in this
business, words
beginning
to swim
line by
line
moment by moment
thinking, writing the river
the ocean
suddenly all talk
is of this great return
DELETED SCENES
I love deleted scenes.
I myself
am
a deleted scene
excise.
by the shears of the fates
by an
editing machine
there it is
it is what it is
has its meaning and beauty
special to me
never going to feature
in the great picture
big picture out there
on every screen.