DIAMOND
I write
thinly-veiled
stories of my life
play chess (badly)
to keep the forces of
light and dark
in synthesis, balance
look out at the stars
each a solar
nuclear furnace
and wonder
about gold and silver
dark energy, anti-
matter
about silicon
and carbon
which you are, as
my lifeform, such
long-standing
Muse
from a
distant galaxy
asking me
to cross fifty light years to
come visit
carbon compound
you are
compressed
to diamond
MORE
at once
a suffering and
a fufillment
at once
ink and psint
and canvas
and wood
but
also blood
fast raw red arterial
but black where
death has
already infested
out in the heat, the cold,
across every extreme
I see you slaving
trying to bring
to state of
truth and beauty.
some murderous,
killing idea
there where the ice is
point at which
some
gas freezes, there
where flame can
easily smelt steel
maybe you should shred
smash crush
all that tortured you,
so altered you
by way of
acceptance and repentance
but she, the Muse,
has got her sting and fangs
and claws
deep into you
tells you
there is more, you
know there
is
still more
HITHER
I wandered through poetry
thought I knew
this place
well
looking for wisdom
looking for humanity
my outlook by
no means negative
though by no means
expecting
wonders
miracles, transformation,
soul-shaping
life-
defining metaphors
and sadly I must add
conceding
no possible hope
for love
which is exactly where I found you
chatting to my Muse
(why is
Muse never lover?)
man
most well-measured
not a syllable out if place
but your
voice
your voice
I do not hear
perhaps it is just too
comfort-zone, risk
averse
agrophobic
when it comes to
to the beyond, the boundless,
our freedom
in a nutshell
shattering it to smithereens
with the force of
poetic pressure
and perhaps
the poet too
perhaps
we should stay contained
work like
jewellers do
in miniature
for this is a dangerous age
bad time
for words
and I, for my sins and
pretensions of
truly sinning
have wandered so far
of course, too
far away thus
with
grace
let me leave
you here
for who
would now come hither?
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