GARBLE

GARBLE

I stutter
I garble
something

leaves my mouth
dies on the air
not quite mine

and now
millennia later
Jacques D
turns me
upside down
says I
should have
written it down
(focusing
     on metaphor,
eschewing rhyme)

and,
   following that cue exactly,
what was once there garbled
finds form
function structure even
as
  dances across the page

and now
    internalized, compartmentalized,
I live inside
a structure, penned in
by these
   four walls, a
structure of structures

infinitely layered, anything
but solid in
the old
classical sense

though it will
always surely appear so

story of
our entire take on everything
modus vivendi
with the Universe

fairy
   tale and fable
treatise, principia, tractatus,

tall
    and charming
tale alike
of what we are, always were,
never shalt be, how
we do and
where
we
    came from

stardust rotting
under burial soil

so hapless, helpless, truly
marvellous, utterly outstanding,

as yet again
    I garble as I try to
do it justice, go for balance
in expression

wrong and misconstrued
despite (because of) every
total global consensus

and here
      you have whispered it,
captured it
   sealed it in a nutshell
more perfectly than all that I
by very name
and definition
             could ever get
within
striking distance
          ever dying just short
of having achieved

IF ONLY

IF ONLY

if only you
could explore
my consciousness

chat with
the best angels of my nature

inner demons, virtual
particles

bring to resolution all
those deep schisms
final polarities

find the exact
point of give and take
between
repulsion and desire
love and hatred
what passes for good
and what we know of evil

(the verse unmistakably
thickening
at this point)

if only you
might consent to
explore me
plant flags all over
strip me
via slick treaty

return me
to my reluctant maker
with all
my ancient proverbs burgled
suddenly made
redundant
every angry truth I need to
used to know

WITH MEDUSA

WITH MEDUSA

I had tea
with Medusa

on Solaris (was
hell striving to convince
her I had
been invited)

joke being
that he who fathered me
swore I could
never grow man enough
to be turned
into stone

and then,
of course, so much
snake myself that she
could not but
feel comfortable
dialing down the ancient wrath
to what
barely rose above
a frown

and thus enough frissance,
and indeed camaraderie,
to sustain
this sudden
turn to ceremony, leading
to the pouring
and imbibing of (obviously)
milkless green tea

and thus
taking time out to wonder
which of us
might be real, unless both,
or even neither

or as
the planet itself might
elect to determine
constructed exclusively
from
memories
or producr of
the dialogue, dialectic, between
the snakes
in both our systems
and the alien intellect rooted
in Solaris itself

(such a bugbear, and liberation,
how the human
brain
finds itself shaped to
divine and interpret)

MANCHESTER ON THE MOON

MANCHESTER ON THE MOON

I wanted to
return to Manchester
study its
poetry its
secret geometry

found it
buried beneath
Roman ruins
there on
the dark and
light sides
of the Moon

and digging there
found Victorian wonders
and once great
football stadiums
forgotten tales
of glory
   written in
scarlet red or
sky blue

and
    relics of the famous
Royal Eye Hospital
where I
was both treated and
(those green goddess
days) stopped
from burning

and the libraries, and galleries,
and theaters and
universities
where I once
studied
    or sojourned

and now must excavate
to find if
memory is real, my
history is true.

FIVE MINUTES

FIVE MINUTES

five minutes
with you

and you
had rewired everything

can you imagine
what deconstruction,
reconstruction
if I had
   spent a
night?

wandering
out from your arms
into the morning light
totally zombified

only for you
to catch me, hold me
whisper
      our
new secret code

and watch
my insides
turn
silver
otherwise gold

my eyes
see
    through everything

my wings
begin to grow

FORTHCOMING

FORTHCOMING

I beseeched the Universe
for a poem
so many
times I asked
but not one
was forthcoming

until
  much time passed
and suddenly then
fire and
massive winds
ripping through
the sky

poems everywhere
pieces of paper rising
falling
     floating, burning
like lanterns above
tiny boats
on the sea

too many by far
to catch and read
anything like
enough
really

but fire and wind
conspiring to
create
this scene of
crazy beauty

final triumph of poetry
even as it disappeared

final
flowering nothing
able to
surpass
as if
by definition.

BE

BE

end of the road
and so branching, back-
tracking, trying to
figure our evolution
before it takes
us on a path

somewhere where we
can live at ease
with the hostility of
the Universe to life
and yet
    perfect chemistry for it

figure out a way
to escape
     this impasse find
ourselves rethinking

overthinking
this Universe demanding
consciousness of us
demanding intelligence,

darkest
dialogue

why can’t it just let us be?

OR DO NOT SMILE

OR DO NOT SMILE

came to see you
found you in mood
assertive yet contemplative

strolling along the beach
inner peace broodingly tempered
by some dark cloud momemts

only adding to my sense of your
backbone, resilience, tensile strength

or perhaps you were
as I had half expected
sultry, inviting,
familiar
simply sitting on the beige sand
taking in everything
perhaps waiting
    for he who is indeed legendary
beyond compare,
or perhaps
just isn’t, will dupe you
in a masterclass of
male manipulation

and then we saw each other
which was a delightful
surprise or
might equally not have been

it’s all about probability
what
     the Universe at
its smallest is
determined to
decide for us

lifting up mountains in
a million year
blink, alternatively
                 grinding down
   
   and there we have it
all that is
and was and will
forever be

openly there between us
and openly
                   not between us

nothing in the cosmos
we know of
           to bend
in opposite direction
               the rigid arrow
of time

unless as we see
here
     not just bending but
completely melting

and
    seeing all that was fixed
and figured
helplessly dissolving

we see each other smile, are
sunshine
     or do not see, or
do not smile at all