AS A CHILD

AS A CHILD

as a child, you
wrote poetry

a form of liberation, if
not the very weapon of it

something poetic
about that
    curved magazine

the brilliance of
its rugged simplicity
thing of
wood
   and metal

Garand and
Sturmgewehr, you

delivered us
    their love child

Tarantino’s Samuel L.
telling us
   in Jackie Brown
this is
   the perfect amalgam of
voice and
rhythm

absolutely essential
when you need
to clear
a whole room

and when you passed
word went out about
your deep
regrets at having
created this
sublime artifact of
deadly engineering

left us
   if not with a song then
your signature
                  tune, and

from your grave,
that distinctive sound marking
the death
of Empires, release from
burdens

and then the legend
    buried beneath that good
Russian earth

if they
   were to raise you, disinterr
you

chamber
   the first round

would
    you fire

from the beginning always
a poet of fire



BEFORE YOUR TEAM CAN WIN

BEFORE YOUR TEAM CAN WIN

and so
they spoke

the football gods
the ones
that are there
not the ones
were elected

told us
     that this shithousery final
was what
we wanted, what
we always wanted

what defines
in essence
the beautiful game

not sentimental stuff
like twenty year old way
back then
Leo Messi
cradling that little
African Arab baby
Lamine
Yamal

said this is the rough stuff
rules are only
for the rich
and powerful

what
you begged for
and so, we gave you,
at the home
of gridiron
    of the New York
Giants
could you have asked
                for more?

unless, lovers of defense
that you are
      unsatisfied by extra time
only the cataclysm
of penalties
would
   be enough to sate you

chance to
   leave it

in our laps
   who in truth
          do not care for your trophies
and medals and
State sports washing
all those
things infants and
infantinos
hold
   so close to their hearts

we
love
    the irresistible craziness
of the game
when it becomes fluid,
full-flowing

ten goals
   in ninety, beauty
wizardry
off the charts

but
   not what
is demanded
for victory, for joy
for
   mere mortal perspective
on this
game of games

when
    things fall as they must
before
your team can win

TATTOO


TATTOO

those eyes
that blazed with anger

now smouldering
with desire

what was locked and bolted,
a barred portal

now a net of
gossamer, a screen
of silk
     a shimmer of filigree
to lure me in

the love that pumps
through my
heart
  and veins
for you

demands this pen
writes, writes, writes

poor as this poem is
my words are

I know none
  better to have inscribed
on my skin
in place you are
bound to
find 

LEXICON

LEXICON

these are
the alien words
that signify me

express
me completely,
capture who I am
in a whole different tongue

exquisite in
their orthography,
impossible to pronounce

symbols of something
I have not located, would
appear to escape me

somewhere out there
a description, definition,
so resonant
        it is
the answer to my identity,
every question
ever asked

KASPI

KASPI

Ah!,
     those pieces
are starting to open up
becoming a lot more
friendly to me

the squares, too,
are starting to show me things,
teach me
how this dance
is done

pulling back the veil until
I see them, find them,
those
   secret patterns, hidden
pathways

how it all
       meshes together as
a perfect machine

Oh
  now for the first time
I embrace that temptation
to sacrifice time and
material
    seeing what this game
of games unlocks
to what heights
it takes me

honoring the memory
of Kaspi, my one-eyed, bicolor,
feline best friend,

named after that author
who so cogently argued for
the intimate
connection between chess
and life
with all the persuasiveness
of a great world champion.

AT THE TIME

AT THE TIME

we
were always
in a different time
zone

perhaps even
epoch

but then again, maybe
it was all down
to me entirely

light years away from anyone
in my own nebula
or just
high above, if not
deep below
the surface
of this planet
(who knows?, perhaps
both
at the same time)

fifty years whizzing past
each other, never colliding,
not even
a glancing blow

destined for
bigger things, battering our
ways quite
independently into
populated planets

as if
    radar guided, as if
beautifully synchronized,
exactly timed

AND ALL THAT

AND ALL THAT

I was present
at the funeral of the dead Universe,
not a pallbearer
but did bring flowers
(obviously not there
at its birth)

was sure
     they would let me
give a little speech
but was assured
I wasn’t
important enough, and
being a sort-of poet
would be
bound
to get the tone wrong,
if not break into
rap, or, heavens forbid, song

and so
     my bubble burst,
disappointment expanding
at the speed of light

I found a fulcrum, place
to stand, and lever

spent all of eternity
dissing the hell out
of everything, everyone
that somehow
found themselves forced into
or openly deciding

to love badly, and
be loved badly back.